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We are an adult living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and DID. In addition, our Agoraphobia has been making a resurgence, as of late. This blog is to chronicle our journey with mental illness and mental health, and some of the roadblocks we may hit along the way.

You may call us Chaos.

When we were first diagnosed, we didn’t know what kind of rollercoaster we were in for. All the different diagnoses along the way, to get to these, and even these may not be “right,” you know? All the different medications, just to have them stop working, try new ones, they stop working, keep going, begin again… Being suicidal, attempting suicide, being admitted to the psychiatric hospital. Wash, rinse, repeat. This all started in 2003. We are still in the midst of it.


“To survive it is often necessary to fight and to fight you have to dirty yourself.”
~george orwell

“If you fall behind, run faster. Never give up, never surrender, and rise up against the odds.”
~jesse jackson

“Do not be ashamed of the wars your soul has fought to save itself.”
~isra al-thibeh

If we had to choose one thing about mental illness and mental health, that we could change, just one thing… we would choose to remove the stigma about having mental health problems and receiving help for them. So many people lose their battle with depression and suicidal thoughts, or PTSD and other trauma disorders, because they are afraid to get help. How would it look? Or… their family refuses to “allow” it, in the case of minors. If it were more normalized to go to therapy and a psychiatrist, if the psychiatrist were just another doctor, people who need help desperately might actually reach out, through their fear and anxiety and ask for help.

“Not everything that weighs you down is yours to carry.”
~juansen dizon

“Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn’t realize you left open.”
~john barrymore

“She believed she could, so she did.”
~philippians 4:13