the sun sets on the day
just another day really
nothing special happened
nothing out of the ordinary
a day like any other day
except it wasn’t
to her
it was a horrendous day
couldn’t have been worse
nothing could have
made this day
any more
horrid
than it was already
even though nothing happened
nothing special
nothing different
nothing extraordinary
just another day
but on this day
she wanted to die
she wanted to die so terribly
that she could feel it in her bones
she could feel it in each strand of hair
from the top of her head
to the tips of her toes
the desire to die
was so strong
it was consuming her every waking moment
the thoughts of how and when
and who would find her
how they would react
who she wants to have her things
who to apologize to beforehand
and who to say sorry to in her note
who would cry when they found out
and who would just be angry
these thoughts keep bouncing
in and out
‘round and ‘round
all over the place
all the time
she worries about her friends
and the people she’ll be
leaving behind
but they aren’t enough
to keep her soul firmly planted
within her body and her brain
she worries that they will hate her
for what she has done
and never forgive her
but it’s something that must be done
she is past the point of no return
she is too miserable to keep going
too tired to keep fighting
too worn to keep trying
the fight is over
this day will be her end
~Emily Love
