Change is scary…

I finished the partial hospitalization program last week. On Thursday, January 30th. I started a Trauma Focused Intensive Outpatient Program yesterday, February 3rd. Change is scary. I’ve pretty much been in PHP since June. There have been breaks for trips to the hospital, and one short step down to IOP for a few days beforeContinue reading “Change is scary…”

Don’t even know where to start…

I want to write… I have wanted to write for over a week now… I want to write the right thing. I want to make it perfect. There are things I need to write about, but I don’t know where to start. I had a friend commit suicide on January 12th. I relapsed on alcoholContinue reading “Don’t even know where to start…”

Typing without really thinking… hope it makes sense.

This is weird. I’m not used to this. It’s foreign. There’s really nothing wrong… Every now and then, like once or twice a day, I’ll still have a flashback or body memory that will make me cry for a minute. But that is it. My mood isn’t horrible. The demons are there, but not awful.Continue reading “Typing without really thinking… hope it makes sense.”

Going Catatonic and Other Recent Events

According to the DSM-5, at┬áleast three out of twelve symptoms must be present for a diagnosis of catatonia. These symptoms include: Stupor (oblivious inability to move or respond to stimuli),┬ácatalepsy (rigid body posture) Mutism (little to no verbal communication) Waxy flexibility (body remains in whatever position it is placed by another) Negativism (lack of verbalContinue reading “Going Catatonic and Other Recent Events”