How’s it?

Well, I don’t really know at the moment… can that be my answer? I’m still suicidal, self harm helps with this, but I’m trying to not do that, I got close tonight but managed to abstain; I’m still psychotic, just not as bad; I’m still having flashbacks and body memories galore, every day, at leastContinue reading “How’s it?”

Bad few days, or…

I feel like I’m crashing again… I don’t want to be crashing again… I want it to be just a few bad days. I want it to just be my shot of Abilify wearing off early, since it was the first one. I want to miraculously feel better after I get the next shot onContinue reading “Bad few days, or…”

Well, it’s the middle of the night…

… and I’ll give you three guesses. Number One – I can’t sleep. Well done! Number Two – I want to self-harm. You’re two for two… Number Three – I’m sitting on my front porch, writing again. Got ’em all!!! I’m not sure if writing is really going to prevent me from hurting myself, butContinue reading “Well, it’s the middle of the night…”

And to top it all off…

I’ve been having some sharp pain in my shoulder for a while now. I had a few shots into the joint, but they didn’t last very long at all. The last shot I got lasted all of two days. I called the doctor’s office, and the nurse practitioner that I see regularly decided to sendContinue reading “And to top it all off…”

Loud Inside my Head

Found Here It is really loud to me right now. The demons are coming at me full force. Probably from lack of sleep. I didn’t sleep last night at all and only got a 5-hour nap in during the day. They tend to get louder when I’m really tired or really stressed. What’s the mostContinue reading “Loud Inside my Head”

Going Catatonic and Other Recent Events

According to the DSM-5, at┬áleast three out of twelve symptoms must be present for a diagnosis of catatonia. These symptoms include: Stupor (oblivious inability to move or respond to stimuli),┬ácatalepsy (rigid body posture) Mutism (little to no verbal communication) Waxy flexibility (body remains in whatever position it is placed by another) Negativism (lack of verbalContinue reading “Going Catatonic and Other Recent Events”