Well, time for a massive update…

And I do mean massive… So, my last blog appears to have been on July 4th. I apologize for that… there has been a lot going on in my neck of the woods. A LOT. So, where do I even start… (First, there will be topics in this blog that are triggering and I cannotContinue reading “Well, time for a massive update…”

Happy 4th of July!

We wish we could go see some actual fireworks this year… We haven’t been to a show for years. We think they do a good show in the town just north of us, actually. When we were a child, our dad would take us downtown, just across the river, and we would watch the showContinue reading “Happy 4th of July!”

Has it really been 2 months?

You know that feeling when you want to write, and you know you should write, but you have no idea what to write? Well, that is where we are right now… We were in the hospital again. May 7th – 19th. Nothing spectacular. We went before we did anything to hurt ourselves. We went toContinue reading “Has it really been 2 months?”

Well…

We were still in Trauma IOP up until today. We started back in the partial hospitalization program today. We’ve been having more and more suicidal thoughts, and getting closer to acting on them. The therapist from the IOP asked, on more than one occasion, if we needed a higher level of care. We refused toContinue reading “Well…”

How’s it?

Well, I don’t really know at the moment… can that be my answer? I’m still suicidal, self harm helps with this, but I’m trying to not do that, I got close tonight but managed to abstain; I’m still psychotic, just not as bad; I’m still having flashbacks and body memories galore, every day, at leastContinue reading “How’s it?”

Change is scary…

I finished the partial hospitalization program last week. On Thursday, January 30th. I started a Trauma Focused Intensive Outpatient Program yesterday, February 3rd. Change is scary. I’ve pretty much been in PHP since June. There have been breaks for trips to the hospital, and one short step down to IOP for a few days beforeContinue reading “Change is scary…”

Don’t even know where to start…

I want to write… I have wanted to write for over a week now… I want to write the right thing. I want to make it perfect. There are things I need to write about, but I don’t know where to start. I had a friend commit suicide on January 12th. I relapsed on alcoholContinue reading “Don’t even know where to start…”