Change is scary…

I finished the partial hospitalization program last week. On Thursday, January 30th. I started a Trauma Focused Intensive Outpatient Program yesterday, February 3rd. Change is scary. I’ve pretty much been in PHP since June. There have been breaks for trips to the hospital, and one short step down to IOP for a few days beforeContinue reading “Change is scary…”

Don’t even know where to start…

I want to write… I have wanted to write for over a week now… I want to write the right thing. I want to make it perfect. There are things I need to write about, but I don’t know where to start. I had a friend commit suicide on January 12th. I relapsed on alcoholContinue reading “Don’t even know where to start…”

Rough Day…

Today has been rough… just an all around hard day. I’ve had several flashbacks that kind of threw me for a loop and brought up the traumatic loss that I’ve been dealing with the most lately… and that led to the two recent suicide attempts. The memories of this loss are what really brought meContinue reading “Rough Day…”