How’s it?

Well, I don’t really know at the moment… can that be my answer? I’m still suicidal, self harm helps with this, but I’m trying to not do that, I got close tonight but managed to abstain; I’m still psychotic, just not as bad; I’m still having flashbacks and body memories galore, every day, at leastContinue reading “How’s it?”

Bad few days, or…

I feel like I’m crashing again… I don’t want to be crashing again… I want it to be just a few bad days. I want it to just be my shot of Abilify wearing off early, since it was the first one. I want to miraculously feel better after I get the next shot onContinue reading “Bad few days, or…”

Well, it’s the middle of the night…

… and I’ll give you three guesses. Number One – I can’t sleep. Well done! Number Two – I want to self-harm. You’re two for two… Number Three – I’m sitting on my front porch, writing again. Got ’em all!!! I’m not sure if writing is really going to prevent me from hurting myself, butContinue reading “Well, it’s the middle of the night…”

Found Here   I apologize for not writing sooner. The partial hospitalization program and school, together, have been kicking my butt. Those, plus other appointments getting squeezed in as best I can, I’ve barely had time to sleep, it seems. I want to write at least a couple times a week and I’ve been seriouslyContinue reading

And to top it all off…

I’ve been having some sharp pain in my shoulder for a while now. I had a few shots into the joint, but they didn’t last very long at all. The last shot I got lasted all of two days. I called the doctor’s office, and the nurse practitioner that I see regularly decided to sendContinue reading “And to top it all off…”